I did not make it into the JET program, I found out just now. Which may be for the best; I do not have the patience to be a teacher for a long time.
All this time, I thought for sure I would make it. Mostly because I'm qualified, I love Japan, and I've been trying for 9 years to get there. High school I couldn't, college study abroad never worked out (and I tried every semester). I went there for a week two years ago, but a week is like a grain of sand in the ocean of how much I want to go there for an extended time.
I know that this must not be the right path for me, but it still sucks. And depending on what all I get into in terms of grad school, I may just try again next year or later. But I want Japan!! *sigh*
I suppose I'll have to do a long visit there (but is there ever realy a visit long enough?).
Sometimes you want something so bad. Is it possible not to ever get it, no matter how hard you try? I've given Japan 9 years of dedication of wanting to go there.. But I do know that if I give up now, I will never get there.
And sure, perhaps a much better door is opening up. I won't know until I am able to look back on it all. "You can't connect the dots looking forward, only backwards."
All this time, I thought for sure I would make it. Mostly because I'm qualified, I love Japan, and I've been trying for 9 years to get there. High school I couldn't, college study abroad never worked out (and I tried every semester). I went there for a week two years ago, but a week is like a grain of sand in the ocean of how much I want to go there for an extended time.
I know that this must not be the right path for me, but it still sucks. And depending on what all I get into in terms of grad school, I may just try again next year or later. But I want Japan!! *sigh*
I suppose I'll have to do a long visit there (but is there ever realy a visit long enough?).
Sometimes you want something so bad. Is it possible not to ever get it, no matter how hard you try? I've given Japan 9 years of dedication of wanting to go there.. But I do know that if I give up now, I will never get there.
And sure, perhaps a much better door is opening up. I won't know until I am able to look back on it all. "You can't connect the dots looking forward, only backwards."
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